Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Aku rasa aku dah memeningkan kepala aku this week. Aku nak marah tapi tak tau ok ke tak. Keep thinking about others feeling. Boleh jadi gila camni. Things that i keep by myself macam nak blow out. What should I do? Just asik pikir org lain nya perasaan how about me? Susah kan.....sume ati kena jaga. Last2 sedey sendiri. Selalu org ckp i'm to kind with others...but that is me. (sebab dah ramai sgt pijak kepala) What a pitty. I'm childish? Yes I am. (terencat kot..) Am I really choose a freinds to be with? Not really (I guess...) 2 many question about myself and I have to search for the answer. It just like..." i have only 1 bowl of soup and I have to share it with so many people (assume darurat la) but some of these people dun want to share with others. (ni kira sanggup berlapar dari kongsi) And some of it must have a such protocol to drink that soup. I'm in the middle. I'm the owner. I can drink it without asking anybody right. Tapi dah darurat kena kongsi gak. The result is ada yg happy...ada yg merajuk...ada yg sakit ati. That is my situation right now. I can't pleased everybody. But when I want to talk is there anybody want to listen...or they listen but they would try to correct it or give so many comment about it. Ada yg marah2 after that. Menambahkan confused.......hruaghhhhhh.....