ada org request cite PANASSS!!!hahaha...jap tgh pikir...byk sgt...

sape tahu tahap kegatalan aku?tak gatal pun tapi kalau mood aku baik aku layan la. ada la satu hamba Allah ni aku kenal dia sekali dah lama dulu...muka dia pun tak ingat.dah lama sgt.kira kwn pada kwn2 aku la ni.dia berjaya dpt no h/p aku.so few mths back rajin la dia call aku. siap bergayut la ni. mamat ni kat JB. aku pun layan je la sebab bukan bil aku. tak kosa kalau aku yg nak call kan.yg aku layan tu sebab boring satu pastu kalau time aku tak busy.siap kadang2 aku buat cite tipu aku ler...yg aku ni innocent dan decent..huahuahua...bila aku dating ngan sape2 mamat ni call aku cakap la busy...ngan family ke...ngan kawan2 melepak ke...pandai tak?kalau tak pun kalau malam aku cakap sorry i dah tido. penat sgt la u...hihihihi. benda ni berlarutan beberapa bln.kadang2 aku rimas gak dia ni asik call. seperti biasa kalau i'm not in d mood aku tak angkat. sampai aku nak tanya mamat ni tak boring ke call aku? sebabnya aku dah start boring dan tak tau nak ckp apa.

yesterday no dia naik call 2 3 kali.aku tak angkat.tgh shopping kat the curve.pastu masuk satu sms tanya " h ni menggatal tak org nya eck?" suprised...aku mmg suka bab2 nih.setelah penat bershopping dan dah lama takde drama swasta depan mata aku ni kan so aku layannnnn.ooo lupa b4 that ada no johor naik...pompuan la tapi cuma tanya who's this...aku pun bg tau je la...nama aku pun sume tau kan...pastu letak. hehehe..bermula la ayat aku..

aku : gatal gak.
dia : ye ke...dia ada ajak awak couple ngan dia?
aku : ada. dia kata dia takde gf. i tak caya. saje abiskan bil dia.anyway who r u? his gf? sorry ya...he never admit he got gf.
dia : ye ke. tak sangka wujud jantan camni. i dah 2 yrs couple ngan dia.dia suka gayut ngan awak eh?camna leh kenal dia? u duduk mana?
aku : i kat kl.not really la.kenal...emm phone je.mmg dia rajin cl i..actually i mmg expected ur call sebab mmg i tak caya dia kata dia takde gf. so take it like this la,ur bf mmg gatal.sorry to say dear.i thought he has nobody that's what he told me.
dia : awak layan jer jantan pukimak ni??? skarang ni dia kata awak fitnah dia lak.
aku : well ye ke? mcm mana u dpt no i? than can u check his bills and find out how much it cost to call me? aaa gi lah Celcom skali ask them to print out the sms and u can read everything there.last sms tu i tak reply sebab i'm with my bf. buat apa la i nak tipu.apa i dapat?not worth pun. between ckp kat dia ...dia ni tak de kote ke?penakut ya Rabbi.pesan skali kalau tak reti jadi playboy dun be like fucking idiot la. what comes around will comes around later...even not so soon.i tak takut pun infact i'm not interested to see him. so no need to be worry ok. u r the one who should be carefull dear.

huahuahua....apa la...ishhh fenin saja...best gak.tapi kan kesian aku tgk pompuan2 yg percaya gila kat bf diorg yg mcm cibai tu.donia apa nak jadi.makin menjadikan aku takut nak percaya kat "lelaki".well best gak layan drama skali skala...kang kat Sarawak terpaksa la aku layan monyet dan buaya sahaja.

oooo Maria...ko nak tau pasal scandel aku yg lain ek?? nanti aku cita la...sabo la makcik ye.

+ Biskut Julies @ 7:34 PM |

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kelam kabut la aku nih...payroll tak siap2, kena balik lambat lagi arini. tapi benda kelako aku dah buat. jeng3x.... aku gi la gatal anta email kat kengkawan2 aku to inform that i'm leaving. guess what? adalah nama2 tu terselit nama ofis mate aku sebab nama sama bin jer lain....hahaha...apa sudah jadi..this morning that guy aku nya draft man actually datang jumpa aku tanya tul ke nak gi Sarawak? aku terpinga-pinga camna mamat ni leh tau sebab aku tak bg tau sesape lagi kat cn.rupa2 nya aku salah email...damn...aku cakap kat dia jgn bg tau org lain dulu ye..keep it P&C ya...dia pun senyum...adoi la...apa aku dah buat ni????otak aku ni mmg nak kena tiun la...semua dah lari.."berlari berkejaran...seindah bunga di taman.."hahahaha..headwind sekarang main kat mana ek? lama tak tgk diorg perform.

ooo ye tadi org tu call aku mean my new coming employer la tanya is't u can join us early? waduhhh...aku pun cakap la...i need time to back to my home town first. gila! pasni nak cuti dah la susah satu hal....raya pun tak sure leh balik ke idak? sebab time tu aku tak confirm lagi.macam mana nih? sedih kan...takpe...relax...apa salah nya raya di perantauan..tak pernah lagi nih...so cari experience...ala kalau nak diikutkan pun sebenarnya raya tu bukan raya sgt tapi cuma bab makan!!!! yummmm sebab aku suka makan!!!!itu la yg sedihnya. tapi dalam aku nya plan new year aku nak celebrate kat sini....so boleh cuti lama sikit...bila pro-rate and join sana cuti aku cuma 8 ari jer..so terpaksa la aku berkira-kira bab cuti nih...planing my leave la pulak...

+ Biskut Julies @ 9:56 PM |

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At last I make my own decision....I’m leaving..
I accept the offer already. huh...it's hard time for me. Leaving my life style, my little2 sis, my family, my friends, my loved ones...haahaha.. I’m going to cry later but I hope there's a better future and opportunity for me there. I will miss everything here. huhuhuhuhu.......ya ALLAH...kuat kan la semangat ni. I know i can do it...it just I’ll be lonely. That’s the risk I have to take it. Challenging.......so I have to buy new tennis racket...since I’m going to active back on sports. hmmm wonder? New sports shoes…what else I need there? Tengah buat listing nih. So nanti kalau kat sana I’ll be update my movement and scenario there..nak ambik gambar buaya skali for u all…hhahaha…can bring it as seviniour?.hihihi. Ok … now I’m preparing my resignation letter k….to be continue…..

+ Biskut Julies @ 11:41 PM |

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aku tgh duk plan esok nak menipu apa ngan bos nak ambik half day leave...ada interview...hahaha.aku berbelah bagi nak gi interview ni sebab dia nak anta aku jauh....sarawak...mati kutu la aku jawabnya. dah la dalam hutan....jungle...aku jadi tarzan kang.Camna?...

Kebaikan...
1. dlm utan kat bakun tu tak leh kua suka2 ati so duk diam2...no shopping, no clubbing, no lepak time.
2. duit selamat sebab tak de benda yg nampak dan nak dibeli
3. boleh simpan duit
4. boleh tukar perangai jadi baik ... tido yg cukup...udara yg segar...badan jadi sihat

keburukan..
1. gila sebab tak leh shopping
2. jadi gemuk sebab tak leh nak dance....bila gi clubbing je exercise
3. kemurungan sebab takde kwn kat sana
4. gila lagi sebab tak tau nak cakap ngan sape
5. byk foreigners eiii takutnya
6. ada buaya....eeiiuuuuu.....
7. kena tinggalkan sume scandel so takde tempat bermanja..huhuhu..

apa lagi ek? emm tgk la esok mood nak jwab camana. i also dun have any mood to go to sarawak la.....cuba anta gi dubai nak la.hahaha.....

+ Biskut Julies @ 1:51 AM |

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FOCUS...........

aku ni bengang ngan diri aku sendiri sebab lately ni aku tak leh nak focus. Why? sebab teringat banyak benda yang sia2 yang dah aku buat.abis tu nak buat camna? What pass is pass and i can't turn back time. Sometimes i just wish sekarang ni cuma mimpi.aaaaaaahh but it's reality...reality bites...aha..

malam tadi aku termenung adakah aku menyesal ngan apa aku dah buat? takde perasaan apa2. weird tak? rasa nak nangis jap...tapi tak kua air mata langsung. Damn! Why me?! Apa yang aku dah buat nih? Gila jap.I think this is what people call hilang arah? Tak...aku still dlm tract aku. Bila pikir2 balik sebenarnya aku tak tau apa yang aku pikir. Otak aku terlalu active untuk berpikir dan memeningkan jiwa aku. Ke sebenarnya aku perlu bercuti...? tapi tgh busy...mesti boss tak bagi..huaaaa...... tapi mmg confirm aku tak leh concentrate buat keje nih....what should I do? aku tenung sume keje aku atas table ni ha yang dah aku lambakkan pagi tadi...banyak nya?
and i have to sattle it by this week. Resignation letter dari staff aku tu ha atas meja aku tak tgk lagi. Suddenly aku rasa penat...penat yang teramat sgt. I'm bored, I'm tired, I'm tension. Ada satu perasaan tak sedap...tak sedap ati and i dun like it. Jangan la jadi apa2 harapnya. Apa yang aku risaukan pun aku tak tau. Petang ni aku plan nak call all my family to make sure all safe and nothing happened. Hope after that ati aku ni tenang sikit.

+ Biskut Julies @ 9:23 PM |

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aku rasa lately ni aku tak organized langsung. otak aku asik berjalan je. there's 1 conversation that i had with my freinds....

"i think you dunno what you want in your life!"

wow...that word keep pop-up in my mind this few weeks. is't true? think so. when i ask myself also i dunno...i can't answer that question even i would like to argue with it. i also still blur where's my next destination after this. i'm getting older....haha...even i look younger...perasan..hmmm. what's my plan? i have to came out with something i guess....

1. Working life / area - i)this saturday have to come to the office.touch-up apa yg patut. reorganized back my work and schedule to put it right back on the track. up-date all info to make it interesting....why saturday...sebab nanti aku gatal nak merayap, taknak bgn lambat, do something yg bermanfa'at. ii) look for a new job - since aku pun dah boring gile kat cn it's good for me to look for a new oppurtunity outside. i need to remotivate myself.

2. House - i) rent house - nak ajak adik pindah dari situ.....sui for me la. not good. first taya kena pancit...pastu accident....not good environment la. aku rasa atom2 kat situ tak sesuei ngan aku....hihihihi... ii) beli umah - tgh duk kira2 nak beli umah..hmmmm how is't? aku nak beli umah gak before umur aku 30....dun care...chayuk!!!! but first fine good money...huhuhuhu....

3. Kete - emmm doakan aku kalau dpt keje baru dgn salary yg aku nak by this year kete skrang ni blh bg adik aku pakai....aku nak pakai kete lain laks....hihihi...gatalkan....tapi kete actually not aset nowdays...it's liability...rugi la pulak....

Love life.....my love life is SUCK....hahaha....

lately ni pulak bekas madu aku tu...my ex-bf nya ex-gf...duk call aku balik....story demory about something yg aku rasa rediculous. jantan ni tak guna langsung even aku sendiri nak ngaku ex-bf pun malu..gelieeee...yaks....i dunno what the hell i can be his gf...am i stupid???? YESSS!!! nak dijadikan cite pompuan ni dulu pernah dipregnantkan oleh jantan ni la....(should i telling this?-takpe la kan)diorg bercinta kononnya since study lagi.and then dia buat abbortion 3 times already.GOD!!lepas aku tau aku tinggalkan jantan ni sebab lagipun dia kantoi ada pompuan lain kat umah dia(yg ni ler...yg lain2 2 tak tau). after that aku memang taknak masuk campur lagi.geli geleman aku jadinya.so aku mmg tak contact dia lansung until today. but this girl...should i say stupid still tido ngan jantan nih....pastu ngadu kat aku jantan ni dah tunang ngan org lain lak skarang. even like that dua merpati sejoli ni still see each other....melepaskan apa yg patut...and now...pompuan ni ngadu kat aku dia sakit.....so apa aku nak cakap....sendiri buat sendiri tanggung la....aku ni baik hati lak...org nangis sikit kesian....tapi aku tak paham pompuan ni taknak tarik diri even that guy is jerk. dah sakit ni ada lelaki tu nak tgk? tak kan...sampai la aku termarah kat dia........aku pun tak tau apa tujuan dia bagi tau aku....ikhlas ke...nak bagi sakit ati aku ni lagi ke..but the truth is i dun care about him...menyesal....YESSS...aku menyesal kenal jantan camtu....talam dua muka...pijak semut tak mati..penipu paling beso aku pernah jumpa....!!!!!

itu la citernya aku kembali pada scandel aku....OH YE....ni bukan yg aku story kat bawah tau...ni yg tahun lepasnya bf...hihihi...very hard for me to trust a guy nowdays....ada some jantans tu nak tunjuk belang la konon....meh cn meh...aku cabut dulu apa yg patut...but out of sudden aku boring lak....mana gi perasaan aku pun tak tau..

tadi budak opis aku tanya dah jumpa bf baru tak?....aku geleng jer....diorg kata aku memilih sgt...bukan memilih. nowdays kena lebih hati2. SErik owww kena TIPUUUU!! baru leh nyanyi TIPAH TERTIPU....HIHIHI

+ Biskut Julies @ 11:47 PM |

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haa....just imagine baru dekat 2 bln tak jumpa jaja dia dah beso giler....badan kecik pendek tak tebal gila....bulu dia best...ni muka time tak comei sebab dia sedih nak kena anta balik JB...aku pun dah pindah....huhuhuhu....bye jaja...miz u....

+ Biskut Julies @ 11:25 PM |

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Aku tak faham diri aku sebenarnya. What do I want actually? That’s why we always do the same mistake all over again. Or is that call nutty? Scandals…..ada satu perasaan yang aku dah mula bosan. Something wrong with me.

I just see my ex bf yesterday (1st one). He looks miserable. I haven’t seen him like that before. First time in his life he just knew that his father still alive. He confuse is that he need to see him or not. His current gf can’t understand him…itu yg dia cakap la. He got so tension. I also don’t know what else to say. Sebab kepala otak aku ni pun still berserabut. He look at me .. I look at him…. Shit…what should I say? no answer…muka dia mengharapkan I would say something…but aku pun kelu..so I just say to him try your luck. What pass is pass. If your father can accept you than good. But deep in my heart I hope his father can accept him. He really needs somebody to be called family. I can feel that. I can see from his eyes. Aku doakan dia dapat apa yang dia nak. Sebabnya easy…aku still sayang kat dia. That‘s is how I feel. But I can’t be with him. He cannot lie to me anything cause I knew him inside and outside which it will hurt me later. Sorry Dear…I do miz u.

+ Biskut Julies @ 9:43 PM |

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