Thursday, April 12, 2007
sekarang ni tengah sedey dan berserabut.tadi gadoh ngan housemate.i dun understand her.today become miserable day for me.ingatkan balik keje awal bolehla menenangkan fikiran but different things happened. apa yang menyakitkan ati dah diberitahu yg aku taknak bernincang apa2 ari ni di ignore...(betul ker ayat aku?)thanks to her. so i decide confirm aku nak pindah and the worst thing is i have to stop being her freinds anymore. bukan memutuskan siratulrahim ...it just for good. i dun understand her anymore setelah 9 years kitorang kenal....bila dikenang-kenang banyak kenangan suka duka sama2...and it will be forgoten...just like that. not easy but i have to face it.aku taknak salahkan sesape...maybe aku tang terover sensitive or..aku yang mengada-ngada.tapi aku tak boleh nak hipokrit lagi.aku jadi hipokrit dgn diri aku sendiri terlalu lama.senyum palsu aku ni ha dah hilang...gone with the wind.if got a chance to go out from this country i will grabe it. mesti sume org kata aku nak lari dari sume masalah aku...tapi sape yang tau ati ni. dah bertahun hidup bersedih...yeah i want to build a new life...a very different of me.make up everything in new perseptions.kita tidak tau apa yang ada didepan kita. apa yang aku ada sekarang adalah hasil titik peluh aku sendiri....i have to proud of it. alhamdulillah...tuhan masih sayang....if not i think i will do so many stupid things. aku bersyukur kehadratnya....aku terima dan redha dengan NYA...just pray that he will show me the way to him....AMIN. For my mom....even it's very hard for me to talk to you...but deep in my heart i'm always care about u....and i love all my sisters.....thanks..