Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Aku tak faham diri aku sebenarnya. What do I want actually? That’s why we always do the same mistake all over again. Or is that call nutty? Scandals…..ada satu perasaan yang aku dah mula bosan. Something wrong with me.
I just see my ex bf yesterday (1st one). He looks miserable. I haven’t seen him like that before. First time in his life he just knew that his father still alive. He confuse is that he need to see him or not. His current gf can’t understand him…itu yg dia cakap la. He got so tension. I also don’t know what else to say. Sebab kepala otak aku ni pun still berserabut. He look at me .. I look at him…. Shit…what should I say? no answer…muka dia mengharapkan I would say something…but aku pun kelu..so I just say to him try your luck. What pass is pass. If your father can accept you than good. But deep in my heart I hope his father can accept him. He really needs somebody to be called family. I can feel that. I can see from his eyes. Aku doakan dia dapat apa yang dia nak. Sebabnya easy…aku still sayang kat dia. That‘s is how I feel. But I can’t be with him. He cannot lie to me anything cause I knew him inside and outside which it will hurt me later. Sorry Dear…I do miz u.